So I think I'm starting to come to terms with the fact that no one will ever really understand me. And I'm totally okay with that. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to come off as melodramatic or "emo" as you may... but seriously.

You know why no one will ever be able to fully understand anyone else? It's because we will never be able to fully understand even ourselves. So what's the point in putting so much faith and trust and hope in any other person, when you don't even have those feelings towards yourself in the first place? That's how you fuck shit up. That's how you get stuck.

I've noticed that only in solitude can you find confusion and peace all at the same time. 

Everyone has their problems. That's a given. I've had to deal with my fair share of shit in the past, and I've made more than enough mistakes along the way. I guess it's a trade-off, but I'm still not sure if I think it's a fair trade or not. But then again, it doesn't really matter anyway.

It's fine to build emotional walls. It keeps you safe. But when those walls continue to grow and grow and grow, sometimes it's too late before you realize that no one will ever be able to come in, and you'll never be able to get out.

That's exactly where I am. And that's where I'll be.

If you share this position, I suggest you EMBRACE it.

My Comments From: johnny 01 Jan 2008, 7:40 pm I am pretty sure greybeard is dead on.  Take his good advice! From: greybeard 01 Jan 2008, 10:21 am break out the dynomite, blow the walls to hell, run outside of them naked and laugh at all the world including yourself and you will be surprized how much fun it is