it's difficult to identify which of your feelings are real and which ones you've just made up and kind of subconsciously forced yourself to believe to be true.
Wow...hmmm....history? The history of knowing what were genuine feelings you had in the past and measuring the questionable ones today to those in your past? Interesting question. Not sure. I am a bit there right now in fact. Got feelings/thoughts I really don't know what to do with. I have been asking that a lot lately. What do I do with this now? My only "out" was talking to a friend that has a similar experience. I am having lunch with him next week, maybe he'll have some answers. Do you have anyone like that?