The annalogy of a spider and her web is much understood today.

 A spider floats along on the fall wind, in search of a future home. She comes to a barn and finds a tiny hole in which to enter. The vastness and conditions are perfect so as she drops through the hole she begins her web. It is a massive web which serves her well for many years. It is a fruitful web and catches many bugs for sustinance. Her web eventually covers most of the loft space of the old barn, the elaborate tunnels and weavings are beautiful. As she is maintaining her web one day she comes across this plain single strand that appears to go up into no where and has no seeming purpose. As she snips the strand her whole world colapses in on her and she is devastated. Now what, do you move on or do you    re-build and if she re-builds does she do it there when she has the memory of the beautiful web that was so prosperous?

I have had some bad news as of last night and I don't know if I am at a dead end or am I suppose to do a U-turn and backtrack to where I got on this road. It is a life altering decision that I have to make not only for me but for my family and some others I care about and even some I really don't give a crap about! It is a web I have worked on for most of my life, 23 years to be exact, and I really may not be the one making any decision, somone else may be making it for me and I don't know if his heart is in the right place, I know his head isn't. I seek the guidance of my God and support of my friends regaurdless of how this goes down and I know I will survive it, hopefully well.  Just don't want my friends here to wonder where I am if I am scarce for a while, I am here, I just am locked inside my head and heart dealing with life as it has come to me. I will do my best not to slip into an abyss of depression and I know that you all will brighten my day with your stories, comments and messages. I love you all, Thank you.

Smoky Mountain Angel

My Comments From: greybeard 11 Oct 2007, 5:10 am always remember no matter how rough the road or how dark the cloud in every ride there is a sweet spot to make it worth it From: lastcwboysbabe 10 Oct 2007, 4:38 pm Hey girl,if ya need to talk,give me a holler..I'm home all day long. From: lil_southern_steel 10 Oct 2007, 2:54 pm If you need an ear or a shoulder , you got my number babe...... hang in there , things have a way of working themselves out for the best. From: cagey 10 Oct 2007, 9:19 am I hope you get past all this intact.  Always value you, above all, and don't blame yourself.