DATE: 03 May 2008, 6:57 am / MOOD: High

ok, this was a couple years ago now but i had a boyfriend that took me out on his Harley one fine summer day.

  we rode out in Livonia area then he found some country like roads and we had the road all to ourselves.

 it was so warm out even on the bike.....i was so warm and cozy and the hum of the bike.....i fell asleep!!!....sitting up on the back of a bike going 45 mph....it was just for a second, of course n i woke right up and told Ted. he was like dont do that.

 so we are riding and this time i was holding him but i fell out AGAIN and this time he was trying to talk to me!!...

..we figured that i must've been asleep for about a mile n a half....he stops the bike and we had to walk around and sight see to wake my dumb ass up!!..sorry man, lol

  and it was so hot out all i wanted to do was get back on the bike......so we are at a bar eating lunch instead. and he tells people i fell asleep on the bike...lol. now that was what woke me up i was so  embarassed!!

  so when we got back on the road i was ok.

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DATE: 02 May 2008, 9:25 am / MOOD: Other

 

1.) every man should have dinner waiting when he gets home

 2.) every man should have his toys

 3.) every man should be able to do as he pleases when he pleases.

 4.) every man should be able to watch the game.

 5.) every man should have a woman that agrees, supports loves and respects what a guy needs.

 

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DATE: 24 Apr 2008, 8:00 am / MOOD: Other

...HI!!...glad you came, welcome to my lair, lol. i guess i cant be all the way i am, seems nobody will let me be me. at least nobody thats in charge!!

  just want you to know that i am there for you, you are my brother and you have all my respect, trust, admiration and love.

 

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DATE: 13 Apr 2008, 10:10 am / MOOD: Lonely

  So I thought it was gonna be so great to be single and free. And it is sometimes. But sometimes I wish I had someone to be so close with. that would hold me and just say that it will be ok....

......life can be a lot sometimes and i personally have an abstract way of taking it. I often feel like i want to hurt people when i get angry. people are so stupid and that gets me goin even more....

     something happened yesterday and I yelled and paced a lot instead of kikkin her ass. My sister, Kathy. She , well, she is an over opinionated, bossy, over bearing BITCH.

     every thread of my being was wanting to knock out her front teeth. Like a woman, she wont shut the hell up when ya really NEED her to... the next thing will be knuckles......

   I can see why guys hit women sometimes. She was testin me, yappin her trap talkin shit and she WOULDNT stop. teasin me with what you gonna do n shit.......

      o ill tell ya what i would do, i'd change up her face so she will HAFTA get the plastic surgery she been lookin into. im an asshole like that, ya know, help her along...but I couldnt because my kids were in the room.

   I tell ya what WILL happen...i got so much bs goin on, im either gonna snap and go off on someone or not.  i dont give a shit man. depends on how im feelin at the time. usually I am pretty quelled.....but sometimes, some shit.

   so thats why I am looking for someone to be close with. I need to be quelled more. I been pushed like that before and its not always pretty.  when i feel like this i usually get drunk and be an asshole, bench press or get with my someone i dont got. or i blog.

   I dont let people touch me, i dont know, i just think its uncalled for...its fake, you know them 'ooooooh hiiii' n get a hug and a kiss. Its fake man.

    I need something real and strong. someone that I can count on. someone that will calm me and again make me forget what I cant do nothin about anyhow. yyyup.

      

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DATE: 05 Apr 2008, 1:03 am / MOOD: Dont know

 

         ......Tigger's boy has been sent to Iraq. I would like to thank his boy for his love, courage, loyalty and dedication to his family, his friends and this country.

        May we all honor and respect every single soldier in all the services. Ever.

           I dont know what makes a guy want to join the service, knowing the possible circumstances, so........

           THANK YOU AND THANK ALL YOUR CO-SOLDIERS...BE SAFE AND KNOW YOU ARE ALL LOVED, RESPECTED AND THAT WE WILL EAGERLY AWAIT YOUR SAFE RETURN HOME.

           

 

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DATE: 28 Feb 2008, 7:29 pm / MOOD: Dont know

i am feeling like i should say some more about myself....like i said before, i have nothing to hide, you can ask me anything. i am open, honest and trustworthy person.

 i have a side to me though that used to hinder my being. My family, my teachers, counselors, seemed like everyone didnt like my openness, my brutal honesty, and my fierce friendship and loyalty...i cant imagine why, i think i have more substance than the next bitch.

 now i said 'used to hinder' because since before my divorce, i started not caring anymore what i cannot change about myself. it was a long useless battle to try and keep everyone else happy..i mean, they were hittin me up about how i dress, act and basically live. who the fuck is anyone to judge me???

    all that should really matter to anyone who meets me is that i am not a liar, a thief, a user, i dont cheat, my word is one that can be believed and trusted. and the only way you can know for sure is to give my friendship a run for its money.

 i dont talk shit, i dont say things i dont mean, i am very straight up and direct. i dont feel i have time for anything else.

 i spent a great deal of time wasting away my life trying to constantly prove myself to everyone including my X...im not gonna do it anymore, i dont feel i have to. i know what im about, and anyone wants to question it, go right ahead. i may come off sarcastic or cynical but at least you will get the honest truth.

 aside from that, i am very laid back, i have a great sense of humor , i like and love everything around me. i love animals, people, and the natural beauty of our planet. and i am so willing to accept people for who they are as long as it doesnt infringe on my safety or well being or that of the ones i care about....god help ya if it does, LOL!!!

  i am looking for new friends who are like me or that can hang with me and put up with me. i am not difficult to deal with as long as i dont feel im being dealt myself.

 ima pothead but i dont and have never been bi polar, not on any meds to keep me sane or what people consider normal, i am not an alcoholic, never been diagnosed with anything but yet people call me crazy anyhow. go figure.

 maybe its just because i am so real people cant handle it.

  i have also been told that i tell too much about myself in writing.....so? how would anyone get to know me if i didnt? i dont have my exes friends and i actually really have one friend left over from my unmarried life, she is my best friend. we stayed friends since kindergarden...my friends from married life were all his, not mine and they turned on me the very day my divorce was final, im talkin people i knew for like 15 years i had to write off because they arent to be trusted....

 i am very nice, patient, loving and i love my 2 girls who are nice too because thats how i taught them to be. thats it for now, i think i have let you all in pretty good. i am really kick ass and it would be a waste to not to get to know me even better. lllayta bros. 

 

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DATE: 27 Feb 2008, 10:41 pm / MOOD: Lonely

   the songs on my playlist.....are , well...some people wont like some of them ...but one day i listened to some hip hop and it wasnt what they were saying so much as it was how it sounded that got me.

   it was an artist called k-deezy. Detroit hip hop underground....not did i just feel what he was sayin, the sound was not like ive ever heard. it was good. good like rock n roll n heavy metal. so thats why the rap n hip hop. if ya don like it im positive there is something youll enjoy....cuz im cool like that!!

 but if ya never heard some this shit before, try an listen. i swore hip hop was so stupid...and a lot is but my songs are awesome, my picks are the coolest and all my songs on the playlist are pretty much my exact sediments...like Mother by Dokken, Get Back by Ludacrist...anything by audioslave on my list...hip hop is dead by Nas....actually all the songs are my favorites. a couple are there to show how far rap has come, run dmc... and there are some classics for sure...marshall tucker, hendrix, doors....

 i like all the songs but not usually too much a fan of any one band, usually just a couple songs from each artist is all i need.

 there are a couple i would like to mention that i cant find at all.......Frank Zappa has a song called It Cant Happen Here...and the Who has one called The Music Must Change from the Who Are You album. And Audioslave has a song called ' What You Are'....my sediments EXACTLY.

 so anyhow, dont be alarmed if what you hear is not what you would listen to, ya can always change it by reentering my page. its on shuffle, usually playing the last few songs added first.

 i love you guys man, and have fun on my page!!

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DATE: 28 Dec 2007, 4:31 am / MOOD: Bored

 

    ok, so im not a biker.....my Uncle Gypsy built his own bike from scratch n i thought that was really cool at age 7....when I grew older my brother had a bike, n he rode me a lot as a kid, i think it was a honda 150....then as i grew a bit older, i started wearing leather jackets cuz i like the feel, smell and look of it....then i was attracted to a boy in high school who had a bike, but he never rode me on it, he sold it b4 we got together......but he did take me for a 20 year ride i'll never forgive.....then when i got divorced, i met a guy who i went out with for a while, he has a Harley softtail...we rode a bit..but im not with him anymore...now, i am seeing a guy who has a Harley but it got tooo cold out b4 he could ride me......so maybe im not a biker but there seems to be one inside me somewhere.... 

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